Watching
 
When life just crumbled, and the sky became dim
It wasn't my side I wanted, I gave it to him.
I tried to be a star, but the job was always botched.
At the beginning I stood on the end of the crumbling world and watched.
And waited.
 
Where there was only me, betrayed by myself and everyone else.
I tried to run away, put everything on the shelf.
Suddenly a falling star, another job was botched.
From the beginning I stood on the end of the crumbling world and watched.
And waited.
 
Then there was a chance that forgiveness was just friendships being through.
Secretly sadness, who could help but not be missing you.
Nova Star, Blinking, fading, botched.
Standing on the edge of the far off world I watched
and waited.
 
It never got better, as much as I screamed with words.
I found sadness with the sky and the loud mocking birds.
Black hole sun, moonlight, and darkness, not botched
Here in the darkness I stood where I could not see and watched.
and jumped.
 
Grabbed by the collar of a crumbling hand.
Different world lived in different lands.
Rescued, sadness, suicide, botched.
Here on the end of the world I thought, I waited, I watched.
I watched.
 
In the car I drove to my end, the place I intended to go.
I found a bag, a special candle, in case it was dark and what do you know.
A card, a potion, a small explosion, things that hadn't been botched.
I lit a candle, drank some tears, exploded, on the end of myself and watched.
Alone I sat and I watched.
 
I forgave you your sins, protected your name when I could and secretly I have always cared.
So I hid my many secrets, kept my promise to stand steady, with you I always could share.
Refueled the star, shined the sun, hid my tears dark behind glasses, strong for you, so you could go on, no botch.
Standing on the edge of the world for eternity, like my promise, I will wait for you and I'll watch.
Until your ready.
 
Waiting. Forever, like a fool I will stand here and watch.