Confused Blind

I want,
I don't know
I don't understand
I don't break


I need
I cant see
I can't hear
I can't say a word


I should
I won't stand
I won't fall
I won't believe it.


I shouldn't
I will trust
I will believe
I will strengthen


I understand
I find love
I find Hate
I find use


I misunderstand
I lose hope
I lose touch
I lose you

But was it you, Calling? I had forgot